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Bee It is illogical to obsess over things that cannot change.

These things are me. Nerdy Weird The future

Tuesday, June 1, 2010,10:57 PM

Glee and how it affects Bee's psyche

When I watch Glee, I see so much of myself in Rachel. I see who I used to be, the girl who went primadonna on Smitty (my choir director) for not giving me the Outstanding Soprano award, and who was so self assured in her talent, and still kind of is. I graduated high school then went to college to be a choir teacher. I love performance. If I could get paid to be in choir for the rest of my life I would die happy. People come up to me to this day from my old church and tell me to come back just to sing, and I almost want to. Then I got told by my piano teacher that I should drop piano. I started failing Theory because I quit showing up due to the then soon to be ex-fiancee. I quit my dream for someone else and what do I have to show for it? A crappy deadend job where people treat me like crap. If there was any way right now for me to pay off the 800$ I owed to the school, I'd go. I'd say fuck the Air Force and just go to school. That's truly what I want with every inch of my soul. Watching Glee just reminds me of that, so so much.

Labels: future, glee, life, love, music